The Testimony of a Caterpillar ūüźõ

 I was watching a video about butterflies and was so struck by the revelation their life cycle carries with it…
For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse.   Romans 1:20 
– Don’t Despise the Days of Small Beginnings: A newborn caterpillar fits on the head of a pin it is so small.
– BREAKTHROUGH: In the egg the caterpillar is simply existing, but life begins when it breaks through the shell and begins its magnificent journey. 
– HUMILITY: Once born it eats the shell of the its own egg. It has to swallow the very thing that held it back to make it to the next step.
– Eat for your Season & Eat a Lot: From that point forward the caterpillar eats VORACIOUSLY and it dines on MILKweed. 
– PROCESS: Caterpillars grow very quickly and shed their skin frequently, each time marking a new stage in their life. 
– SHED YOUR SKIN: This process is called ‘instar’ from Latin meaning form/likeness. So with each shedding, the caterpillar takes on a slightly new form/likeness.
– UNDERNEATH: Don’t count out what appears to be on the bottom. When the final stage of metamorphosis is ready to begin the caterpillar searches the UNDERSIDE of a twig. Those that are first shAll be last…
– DESTINY: One of my favorite parts – the last shedding is the most miraculous one…the caterpillar has to break free from ITSELF. As it sheds its final skin you realize that you were beholding an illusion and there is evidence that the true destiny of this creature is something much different then what you first beheld. 
– PROTECTION: The newly formed pupa takes on the appearance of something very ordinary to protect it from predators. Meanwhile…
– BEAUTY FROM ASHES: While the pupa is masquerading as a mere plant, INTERNALLY, the ashes of everything the caterpillar once was are being formed into something so beautiful and so magnificent, it is nothing short of miraculous….WINGS.
– NEW: The old has completely passed away and out of the ashes have came a beautiful butterfly that is vibrantly colored with all, new colors. This is a completely and totally different creature from the caterpillar. 
– LIFE: Before this new creation can take flight, it spreads its wings and begins to pump fluid from the stored nutrients and fluid in its belly until the wings are stretched and expanded into their full size. When you fill up on the WORD, streams of living water flow from within you. 
– BEHOLD: The butterfly takes flight, leaving the shell of its former self behind. It will never again use the same mode of transportation. It will never again eat the same food. 
– DISCIPLESHIP: All things become new and the butterfly will continue to be nourished on nectar so it can REPRODUCE – continuing the cycle of life. 
The video…Life Cycle of a Butterfly


What Do You See?


I was riding down the road today, and something was bothering me. At first I couldn’t figure it out – but then I realized what it was. The trees still have all these fall colored leaves on them, and I feel like it’s Christmas. So I start talking to the trees and I say “Listen…I am going to need you to start LOOKING LIKE IT’S CHRISTMAS!” And suddenly, something drops in my spirit.

I hear the Spirit of the¬†Lord ask me a question…”so you are going to let what you¬†see determine what¬†season you are in?”

Man. What a question. As I drove down the road, and the revelation of what was being said began to slowly unfurl itself in front of me – questions and truths started falling in my spirit the same way the leaves were falling from the trees.

How often do we let what we are seeing with our natural eye determine what we are believing? If the Lord speaks something to you Рwhy do you let what your natural eye sees deter you from believing the promises of God in your life? If the Lord says it is December the 4th, then why let some orange and yellow leaves tell you something different? Even when the leaves are real? 

But isn’t this just what the enemy likes to do? Take our eyes and point them towards what we can see in the natural to distract us from what is taking place in the spirit? In the natural you absolutely¬†can go up to the trees and touch, and smell, and even eat the leaves if you want. But does that change the fact that we are 21 days away from Christmas? No!¬†Should that change your heart from being filled with the spirit of Christmas? The spirit of the season you are in?¬†Of course not!¬†Should you let what you are¬†seeing effect how you are¬†feeling? If your trust is in the Lord, then – NO!

So why not apply this truth to all the other areas of your life? Maybe¬†in the natural that person you know the Lord wants to connect you with seems risky, but what about in the Spirit? Are you supposed to put your trust in people or God? Maybe in the natural it seems like someone has let you down…but are you looking at the leaves on the trees or are you asking the Lord to show you truth in a situation through your spiritual eyes?

The eyes we see with in our spirit have a much different perspective then what our natural eyes see, matter of fact, they see from heavenly places. Our natural eyes can fool us with what is in front of us, and because of the REALity of it Рdoubt and unbelief can easily take root in your spirit and soul. But the Lord beckons us to be a people who see and hear what the Spirit is saying to His bride. (Rev 2-3) You cannot be a person who walks by the spirit until you allow the Lord to shift your perspective into one that sees by the spirit.

Stop looking at the outward man. Stop evaluating people based on the checklist¬†you have made that says they have it all together. Surrender to the eyes of the Lord and acknowledge that God has the right to use whoever He wants, whenever He wants, however He wants and realize you will only be able to see this in the Spirit.¬†Stop looking at what¬†people¬†are¬†doing – what your husband, or wife, is¬†doing, what your¬†friend is doing¬†¬†– and start asking the Lord to show you in the spirit who that person is…chances are the enemy has been using some leaves on their tree to distract you from the truth of who they are and¬†who they should be to you. Or most importantly –¬†who HE says they are.

All in all, the question seems to me, to be this – will you believe it when the Lord tells you what season you are in, or will you choose to look through natural eyes at the leaves falling all around you? Will you have eyes to see past the waving flags of the enemy, sent to distract you from what God is doing in your life, to deter you from your destiny, and will you choose to focus upon the promises of the Lord?

The Lord is speaking to us. He is saying “I am doing a new thing,” and asking us all, “will [we]¬†perceive it?”

Well…God said it’s a new season…so, will you perceive it?

new thing


When You Can’t Contain What You’re Trying to Carry

I wonder how many times the tile of a bathroom floor has caught the tears of a mother? A mother who has stolen away from the world just long enough to let the hurts and hang ups of life escape out of her heart and soul and run down her cheeks,  caught by the tile floor. The tile that offers no comfort and is as cold as hearts that cause pain. A mother who steals away into the solitude of the bathroom because she wants to keep her kids from the knowing. The knowing of the gritty reality that life hurts. And sometimes in the midst of it all, grace is hard to see. Next to impossible to feel. A mother who wants to keep her babies far from the pain, so she locks herself far from her babies.

I wonder how many mothers have visited the deceptive warmth and solitude of this isolated sanctuary. This cold, hard place that can make hope seem like a memory and faith like a bad joke.

Maybe if we would come out of our pretend sanctuary and step into the sanctity of God’s grace, and trust Him enough to bear our souls with one another a little more – maybe we wouldn’t feel so alone. Maybe we wouldn’t have so many tears spill onto the solid surfaces of our lives – the cold tiles and the cold hearts.


Maybe if we realized that our trust never belonged in anyone but Him…

No matter the maybes, the one thing that is…

we may have felt alone, but we never were, never are. And every tear that slipped from the edge of our eyes, as proof that we could no longer hold what we were trying to contain – every. single. tear. was counted. And the end returns to the beginning in the eternal truth that we were never meant to carry the weight of the world.

And that’s why we can’t. ¬†He has always known, and always been ready to exchange our yolk for His, our grace for His, our strength for His. The one question that seems to always remain – will we say yes? Will we put our hope in God? Will we make the decision to praise, while the tiles collect the tears?

‚ÄúAs a deer longs for streams of water, so I long for You, God. I thirst for God, the living God. When can I come and appear before God? My tears have been my food day and night, while all day long people say to me, ‚ÄúWhere is your God? ‚ÄĚ I remember this as I pour out my heart: how I walked with many, leading the festive procession to the house of God, with joyful and thankful shouts. Why am I so depressed? Why this turmoil within me? Put your hope in God, for I will still praise Him, my Savior and my God. I am deeply depressed; therefore I remember You from the land of Jordan and the peaks of Hermon, from Mount Mizar. Deep calls to deep in the roar of Your waterfalls; all Your breakers and Your billows have swept over me. The Lord will send His faithful love by day; His song will be with me in the night ‚ÄĒ a prayer to the God of my life. I will say to God, my rock, ‚ÄúWhy have You forgotten me? Why must I go about in sorrow because of the enemy‚Äôs oppression? ‚ÄĚ My adversaries taunt me, as if crushing my bones, while all day long they say to me, ‚ÄúWhere is your God? ‚ÄĚ Why am I so depressed? Why this turmoil within me? Put your hope in God, for I will still praise Him, my Savior and my God.‚ÄĚ

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭42:1-11‬

Prone to Wander

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,

Prone to leave the God I love;

Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,

Seal it for Thy courts above.

РCome Thou Fount 

Why are we so prone to wandering?  The apostle Paul summed it up when he said, basically, all I wanna do is right, but I find myself doing wrong. (Romans 7:19)

I’m so grateful for the character of our God. I’m so grateful that our wandering is matched by the love of a God who gave His son, knowing we would wander, knowing some would never find their way. I’m so grateful for Jesus. I’m so grateful for a God who, when my heart is far from Him, He is always willing to pursue me. I’m so grateful for this example of limitless, unconditional love. Love without expectations. Without conditions or limits.¬†

It’s so very much unlike the love we give one another. But deep inside, no matter how far I feel, this matchless love always awakens the little bud in my heart that is just waiting to grow…to grow into love like this….love like that…love that shed blood for me…died for me…Love that came for me…love that found me, even before I knew I was lost.¬†